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Day 6 without a functioning furnace.
The space heater keeps the Patrizia-torium at 65°, which is what I would set the thermostat at if the furnace was working, so I am in no danger of freezing to death.
Mostly, I feel humiliated by my own powerlessness in this situation.
Iggy is a monstrously self-absorbed creep, and the thought that he has power over me is absolutely galling.
He’s not being malicious per se. It’s just clear my needs & comfort are not important to him in the slightest. I do not matter! I’m a piece of lint.
This is an awful reality to live with. That someone who owes me—not me as a unique individual but anyone who enters into this sort of contract—a duty of care and then can blatantly ignore that duty of care without repercussions underscores how cruel the world is and how absolutely insignificant I am.
Being reminded of one’s own insignificance can be helpful from time to time. But having your face shoved into it is merely depressing.
I did call Ulster County Legal Aid Services this morning to see what my options are. I am waiting for a call back.
In the meantime, I have a shitload of work to do, so I must ramp down the agita and get to it.
The space heater keeps the Patrizia-torium at 65°, which is what I would set the thermostat at if the furnace was working, so I am in no danger of freezing to death.
Mostly, I feel humiliated by my own powerlessness in this situation.
Iggy is a monstrously self-absorbed creep, and the thought that he has power over me is absolutely galling.
He’s not being malicious per se. It’s just clear my needs & comfort are not important to him in the slightest. I do not matter! I’m a piece of lint.
This is an awful reality to live with. That someone who owes me—not me as a unique individual but anyone who enters into this sort of contract—a duty of care and then can blatantly ignore that duty of care without repercussions underscores how cruel the world is and how absolutely insignificant I am.
Being reminded of one’s own insignificance can be helpful from time to time. But having your face shoved into it is merely depressing.
I did call Ulster County Legal Aid Services this morning to see what my options are. I am waiting for a call back.
In the meantime, I have a shitload of work to do, so I must ramp down the agita and get to it.
