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Weirdest storm ever. High winds: Electricity kept flickering on and off, off and on. Snowed for ten hours straight, gigantic flakes of snow; but because the temps were above freezing, very little of it stuck in the form of snow. Instead, the flakes turned into ten inches of something roughly the consistency of a 7/11 slushie the minute it hit the ground.

Periodically, I waded out in the slush to survey my car.

Benito Snowdrop, who parks his car next to mine, joined me.

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I live on a road called White Oaks, and the road is overgrown with – yup, you guessed it! Oak trees!

Not the majestic, wide barreled oaks that live in enchanted forests.

No, the oaks on White Oaks Road are scraggley specimens that have grown enormously tall because they are so crowded together. They don’t really have a root systems adequate to protect their height.

I usually park my car under one of these oaks.

And yesterday, that tree was dancing in the wind like an acid-zoned hippie at a Grateful Dead concert.

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In 2012, I was living on Long Island in a suburban development my pal BB nicknamed “Ganeshopolis”. (Long story.) At the very start of Hurricane Sandy, I was standing by a window when an impossible thing happened: A huge old tree across the street, whose trunk measured the span of several ring-around-the-rosy children, came toppling dreamily down while I watched. It seemed to fall in slow motion.

“It can’t possibly come down,” Benito said. “Can it?”

“Oh, it can,” I said.

When you looked at the tree from my car, it seemed likely that if/when the tree fell, it would not take out my car.

But when you looked at the tree from the house – which is what I spent most of yesterday doing, in a kind of heightened OCD trance, monitoring every littlest tremor of its slush-laden branches – it seemed like the tree was gonna smash right down on my little Saturn.

“Well, you’re gonna buy a new car anyway, right?” Benito asked jauntily.

“Maybe,” I said.

Because my car is so old, I don’t carry collision insurance.

And I wasn’t keen on moving the car away from the tree to higher ground because in order to do that, I would have to steer it through ten inches of slush, and it doesn’t have front wheel drive.

But finally, I thought, This is ridiculous; you gotta do what you gotta do.

Got in the car.

Drove it ver-r-r-y slowly up the hill to safe parking.

Which wasn't easy.

All night long, the winds continued to howl.

But here it is morning, and the tree is still standing.

It’s definitely more bent than it used to be, though.

And trees all around it are down.

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Since the Internet was problematic, I couldn’t really work.

So I read more Scott Spencer.

I really like the way Scott Spencer writes.

While I was reading the second to the last chapter of River Under the Road, I realized this is at least partially because Scott Spencer’s writing style reminds me an awful lot of an author called Don Carpenter whose novels I once loved.

You couldn’t find a novel by Don Carpenter now. He’s long out of print, and even the moldy stacks of the Hyde Park library have given up on him.

What was the name of that novel about drifters in Portland pool halls? (Yes, Portlandia fans, not so very long ago, Portland was a really seedy place.)

I can’t remember.

Anyway, it was brilliant, as were the handful of other novels Carpenter wrote, mixing vignettes harvested from a third-tier career in Hollywood with street observations in this amazing detached and lyrical voice.

Spencer has a scene in River Under the Road in which the protagonist ends up sabotaging his screenwriting career by tossing a drink in a really annoying poseur’s face, and everything about the scene – the pacing, the dialogue, the Fellini-esque tone – reminded me of Carpenter.

Carpenter committed suicide some time in the 1990s.

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The Meezer is sick again.

More bladder stuff.

I am not going to spend the big buck$ bringing her into a vet.

She’s 20 years old. She doesn't appear to be in any pain; she's just indiscriminate about where she pees. Sooner or later, whether I like it or not, whether I pay big buck$ to the vet or not, she’s gonna kick this popsicle stand.

So-o…

I’m doing what I did last time she got a bladder infection.

Segregate her in her carrying case – which is decked out with warm things for her to nest in – acidify her drinking water with Vitamin C, feed her kidney formula cat food. And wait and see.

It’s making me sad, though.

I hope the Meezer realizes she's not being punished. That she's being given a safe space.

But I'm not sure she does.
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Don Carpenter is (arguably) the best 20th century novelist you never heard of. His books are long out of print. He killed himself in 1995. Shot himself one summer day. They didn't find his body for a couple of days so it bloated and festered. Which is exactly the type of detail you might expect to find in one of his books.

Anyway, in the extraordinarily vivid dream I had early this morning, Don Carpenter and I had undertaken a mapping project together which involved plotting the courses of the creeks running in culverts underneath the Fruitvale neighborhood in Oakland.

In the early nineties, I had lived in this very neighborhood. In a very cute, very old little cottage – rumor had it that this cottage at one time had been an outbuilding on the huge Peralta land-grant, part of the 45,000 acres granted to Luis Peralta in the twilight of Alta California. A few blocks away moldered the Peralta House itself, an old adobe with a hideous Gothic Victorian façade. I understand that a state bond has since been passed and the house, refurbished, is now a local park.

Right behind my cottage flowed the Peralta Creek. It was a hideous combination of garbage dump and a shooting gallery, yet enchanting in its own way: wild watercress and other exotic herbs grew along its banks and on Sunday mornings you would see groups of Vietnamese harvesting the plants. (Or maybe they were Laotians. I watched from a distance. They all had those red strings around their wrists – that's Hmong, isn't it?)

Anyway, in my dream the Peralta Creek had utterly disappeared and Don Carpenter was the only person who believed me when I said it had once been there. And I was getting more and more frantic trying to prove its existence. I had hit upon this novel means of persuasion: it was defined by its very absence! Think about it! Everything else that doesn't exist could exist if the conditions were right. But the Peralta Creek! There wasn't even speculation about it.

"Right, right," said Don, nodding smoothly. I think he was managing me the way all crazy people have to be managed. You pretend to speak their language. "But see, here's the thing. In his own lifetime, Vincent Van Gough was a failure."

"So what?" I said.

But Don Carpenter kept looking at me expectantly as though it was obvious what he was telling me and he didn't want to insult my intelligence explaining it.

And then I woke up.

A very Jungian dream…

###


A few hours before, raging insomnia had coaxed me into watching Wall Street. What a bad movie. B woke up right in time to catch Gordon Gecko's famous monologue. He chanted it along with Michael Douglas, "Greed is good."

"So," B asked conversationally during the commercial break, "do you think Michael Douglas is the one who corrupted Charlie Sheen? I mean, Michael Douglas was a famous sex addict, wasn't he? Before he married Whatshername. Zorro's girlfriend."

"I don't know," I said. "I kinda like Darryl Hanna's outfit. That red suit with the herringbone stripe. But that's the only thing I like about this movie. Why does Oliver Stone have a career?"

"Well, he doesn't. Anymore."

"How many hours a day do you think people spend watching television."

B laughed. "A lot! Look at you! I think it's a distraction designed to keep intelligent people from realizing we live at the behest of a corrupt corporate oligarchy. You don't have to have a life if you have a video-enabled I-Phone and three seasons of Lost!"

Shortly after he fell back to sleep.

It took me another episode and a half of that strange show about the crooked cop starring that actor who was once The Commish but then took steroids.

###


A few hours before that, I was driving Robin to karate and he was complaining about the house.

"So-o-o what you're saying is that you're ashamed of the house –"

"Well, yeah," said Robin.

"— and that's why you don't have your friends over."

"Well, sometimes I have Wells over. But Jojo and Gigi –" the Colton Middle School Italian posse. He shook his head. "They're really rich."

I sigh. "Well, you're not wrong about the house being an incredible dump. I never have time to fix it up. And your father's aesthetic tastes tend to run to circus posters and vintage Socialist petitions."

"The thing is, it smells," said Robin. "Like dogs."

"Well, yeah," I said. "You could wash the dogs, of course."

"I'm not a maid," said Robin loftily.

This is a thing that really infuriates me about Robin. He feels so goddamn entitled. When Max was Robin's age, B came down really hard on him about doing his chores. Max had to take out the garbage; clean the bathroom; walk, feed and bath the dogs before he saw a nickel of his allowance.

Robin is just so unpleasant to deal with when he's made to do something he doesn't want to do that it's easiest just to do those things myself. I'm not doing him any favors, I realize. I'm doing myself one.

Except I'm so busy eking out the revenue to run this operation that household maintenance and upkeep never gets done.

###


And a few hours before that I was cruising around town running errands – bank deposit, Little Store rent check, a package to be mailed to a place called Plantation, Florida. I wondered idly whether there's an African American population in Plantation, Florida, whether the word "plantation" is -- or can become in the near future -- politically incorrect. The dogs are in the car too; when the errands are over, I'm going to run them on the northern side of the beach since most unaccountably, the animal control people have suddenly decided to start enforcing leash laws on the southern side of the beach. I'm hoping the city of Monterey goes bankrupt in the near future and the animal control people all lose their jobs. The northern side of the beach isn't nearly as nice as the southern side of the beach although you do get to watch jellyfish in the tides like so:



Anyway I am listening to Dr. Dean on KGO. Dr. Dean is describing this graph that National Geographic just put together that compiles all the number of human beings who died in the 20th century due to war or war-related causes. Number is something like 80 million people. It's a staggering number until you consider how many billions of people lived on this planet in the 20th century.

And it hit me. War is completely natural. War is the planet's way of reducing the population.

And I began to cry because even though the murderous chimpanzee is the primate with whom I share the most chromosomal loci, I don't want war to be completely natural.

I don't want there to be this many people either.

How can I be special when there are ten billion other people whose inner life is just as intense and absorbing as my own?

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