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mallorys_cameraIt’s been hot. Very, very hot. Eighty-degrees-Fahrenheit-by-9-o’clock-in- the-morning hot.
This means that by the time I’m coffee’d up and Daily Mail-ed up enough to want to go out and exercise, it’s too hot to go out and exercise.
Consequently, I haven’t exercised for the past couple of days. At the same time, I haven’t slept well for the past couple of days. Are these two things connected? Seems likely.
I felt the urge to become politically involved in the orchestrated momentum leading up to the last Presidential election and the hysterical churn of the first few months after Trump won.
But it’s obvious the Sooper Sekrit Political Group is just another dead-end time sink at this point.
Before I got involved with the Sooper Sekrit Political Group, I was very involved with the Dutchess County Political Action Alliance – but it soon became very clear to me that the only “action” the DCPAA is committed to doing is allying with larger state progressive groups that want to use ground members as background extras in various useless rallies and protests. That’s an insult to my intelligence.
At this point, I’m thinking that all the high drama on the American political stage is just a battle for advertising dollars being waged between MSNBC and Fox News.
The words of the ZMan echo: I slowly came to the conclusion that the whole Right-Left dynamic was just a myth… If the Right-Left construct is just a version of good cop/bad cop where the people in the media hustle the rest of us so they can live above their utility, then what’s really going on in the world?
And the always relevant Bion of Borysthenes quotation. You know the one. The boys throwing stones. The dead frogs.
I care but not in the way I see my agitated Progressive friends caring. I think they’re having trouble separating the Figure from the Ground. And the Ground, she is changing…
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Also, I have my own Work – which I pretty much have ignored for the past few months.
My own Work may never amount to anything, but it is mine – my own “sensemaking” to borrow Boy Genius’s ridiculously pompous phrase.
Why have I been ignoring it?
Partly a lack of discipline.
Partly the fact that I make my supplemental monies writing and that those writings have to happen on a timeline over which I have no control – so that when those deadlines have been met, I am often all written out and mentally exhausted.
Partly, though, because I’m not allowing myself to be absorbed into my own imagination. I’m allowing myself to be absorbed into other people’s imaginations. It’s more of a social thing, doncha know.
Not really sure what to do about any of this. I’m done being hard on myself in any way, shape, or form. The world is hard enough on me already; I don't see why I should give it any additional help.
But I’d like to figure out a way to get back inside my own imagination.
This means that by the time I’m coffee’d up and Daily Mail-ed up enough to want to go out and exercise, it’s too hot to go out and exercise.
Consequently, I haven’t exercised for the past couple of days. At the same time, I haven’t slept well for the past couple of days. Are these two things connected? Seems likely.
I felt the urge to become politically involved in the orchestrated momentum leading up to the last Presidential election and the hysterical churn of the first few months after Trump won.
But it’s obvious the Sooper Sekrit Political Group is just another dead-end time sink at this point.
Before I got involved with the Sooper Sekrit Political Group, I was very involved with the Dutchess County Political Action Alliance – but it soon became very clear to me that the only “action” the DCPAA is committed to doing is allying with larger state progressive groups that want to use ground members as background extras in various useless rallies and protests. That’s an insult to my intelligence.
At this point, I’m thinking that all the high drama on the American political stage is just a battle for advertising dollars being waged between MSNBC and Fox News.
The words of the ZMan echo: I slowly came to the conclusion that the whole Right-Left dynamic was just a myth… If the Right-Left construct is just a version of good cop/bad cop where the people in the media hustle the rest of us so they can live above their utility, then what’s really going on in the world?
And the always relevant Bion of Borysthenes quotation. You know the one. The boys throwing stones. The dead frogs.
I care but not in the way I see my agitated Progressive friends caring. I think they’re having trouble separating the Figure from the Ground. And the Ground, she is changing…
###
Also, I have my own Work – which I pretty much have ignored for the past few months.
My own Work may never amount to anything, but it is mine – my own “sensemaking” to borrow Boy Genius’s ridiculously pompous phrase.
Why have I been ignoring it?
Partly a lack of discipline.
Partly the fact that I make my supplemental monies writing and that those writings have to happen on a timeline over which I have no control – so that when those deadlines have been met, I am often all written out and mentally exhausted.
Partly, though, because I’m not allowing myself to be absorbed into my own imagination. I’m allowing myself to be absorbed into other people’s imaginations. It’s more of a social thing, doncha know.
Not really sure what to do about any of this. I’m done being hard on myself in any way, shape, or form. The world is hard enough on me already; I don't see why I should give it any additional help.
But I’d like to figure out a way to get back inside my own imagination.
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Date: 2017-05-19 02:27 pm (UTC)I feel like I'm doing this, too. It seems like many people are really worked up (seemingly over nothing). I see patients who go on hysterically about the sky falling, and after a while I start to question whether the sky is falling myself. I mean, not really; I've always resisted consensus reality. And there isn't really a consensus here. But there does seem to be a disconcerting mass hysteria.
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Date: 2017-05-19 03:17 pm (UTC)That's always been one of my talents, too. :-)
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Date: 2017-05-19 06:10 pm (UTC)Yes!!!
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Date: 2017-05-20 01:17 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2017-05-20 04:09 am (UTC)I will survive four years of the opposite scenario - if T cured cancer tomorrow, the press would blast him for stealing jobs from the grim reaper.
I have lost all faith in the press corps. As a former newspaperwoman, this crushes my soul in ways I do not have words to explain.
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Date: 2017-05-20 01:14 pm (UTC)I like Obama as a person, but I didn't vote for him in the 2012 election. And honestly? I think a lot of what we're seeing now with the overreach of executive power was set up by Obama.
I haven't lost all faith in the press corps. The rule of thumb when I was at Time Inc was that you needed confirmations from three primary sources in order to substantiate a fact. I think the Washington Post has been doing factual stories. And they've run some laudatory Trump stories, too, you know. Only those are never linked to by the various Right news aggregators (Drudge et al)
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Date: 2017-05-20 04:52 am (UTC)I talked with the NBC reporter and gave him background, and offered to show him the metal processing spot. Both a local sheriff's deputy and the TV reporter privately admitted that it wasnt some nefarious plot to disable the internet, but the false news account, that said otherwise, went national, and the self-serving FBI and regional anti-terrorism task force quickly embellished it.
Bullshit, bullshit, but millions were fooled.
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Date: 2017-05-20 01:15 pm (UTC)And disillusioning.