Habit Into Pleasure
Aug. 23rd, 2013 07:10 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
mallorys_cameraIt's very easy to fall out of the habit of writing, and so I have.
It's not that I'm so extraordinarily busy at work, it's that when I go back to the little room where I'm staying, I am mentally exhausted. I look at the little list of projects, I flip it over, and I start playing video games, reading chick lit, browsing downloaded entertainment – Top of the Lake has had me in thrall this past week.
I reprimand myself. You should be doing something worthwhile, I tell myself. But playing video games, reading chicklit and watching 10 weeks of TV shows in a single sitting are apparently the things that give me pleasure. Of course, I'd much rather be deriving pleasure from brushing up on differential equations, finishing the second draft of my novel, contacting all those people who've contacted me in the past week whom I haven't contacted back. But the simple fact is, I don't.
I can only imagine that this is a temporary thing. That I'm only three weeks into a Major Transition, white board of the present tense wiped entirely clean, so, of course, I'm exhausted.
But I think I'm ready to start forcing myself to be productive again. You only have to force yourself for a few days. After that, it becomes habit, and after that, pleasure.
It's not that I'm so extraordinarily busy at work, it's that when I go back to the little room where I'm staying, I am mentally exhausted. I look at the little list of projects, I flip it over, and I start playing video games, reading chick lit, browsing downloaded entertainment – Top of the Lake has had me in thrall this past week.
I reprimand myself. You should be doing something worthwhile, I tell myself. But playing video games, reading chicklit and watching 10 weeks of TV shows in a single sitting are apparently the things that give me pleasure. Of course, I'd much rather be deriving pleasure from brushing up on differential equations, finishing the second draft of my novel, contacting all those people who've contacted me in the past week whom I haven't contacted back. But the simple fact is, I don't.
I can only imagine that this is a temporary thing. That I'm only three weeks into a Major Transition, white board of the present tense wiped entirely clean, so, of course, I'm exhausted.
But I think I'm ready to start forcing myself to be productive again. You only have to force yourself for a few days. After that, it becomes habit, and after that, pleasure.
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Date: 2013-08-23 02:35 pm (UTC)I'm convinced periods of mindless activities are as essential as sleep!
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Date: 2013-09-03 01:35 pm (UTC)Dunno why it's so hard for me to take my own advice. :-)
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Date: 2013-08-25 01:49 am (UTC)An incredible accomplishment, that one
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