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A difficult, difficult stretch. It’s not as though I stopped functioning. It’s more as though Henry Ford had taken up permanent residence inside my skull. My life became a conveyor belt. Every task, from the simplest to the most complex, had to be broken down into its component parts before I could accomplish it.
Going To the Bathroom: Going to the bathroom is a task that millions of Americans accomplish and enjoy every day! It’s easy and you can do it too!
Instructions:
1. Get up from your chair…
No, seriously. That’s what it’s been like. I’m not sure why exactly. Maybe the reserves of spontaneity and mental firmness I built up from all that bike riding last summer have finally been exhausted. Fortunately, I think these last two cold and snowy days were winter’s last gasp. Next few days are forecast to be in the 60s. I’m going to spend some quality time with my bicycle. Exercising makes a big difference in my mental health.
An 83 year old woman with dementia wandered off last weekend and was found dead in an open field yesterday. I spent some quality time obsessing about her too. You figure she likely lived a very well off middle class life, raised a family, then abruptly all the horror and suffering that is the human plight got meted to her in the very last 48 hours of her life. A small perfect tragedy…
I wonder where she thought she was going when she wandered off from her caretaker husband in that shopping mall?
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Date: 2012-03-06 01:15 pm (UTC)I have the same feeling about getting out of bed. I have to, but I don't want to because stuff hurts. And yeah, exercise is the thing - I keep moving and I probably always will until I'm found face down in a fallow field.
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Date: 2012-03-06 01:29 pm (UTC)Yeah, I got a hint of that wondering where that woman thought she was going.
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Date: 2012-03-06 06:48 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2012-03-07 09:41 pm (UTC)How does one get out of the open loops syndrome? I mean, I have no control over the open loops except to recontexturalize them inside my head as closed loops. Any ideas on how what might do that?
I wish I could follow my own advice
Date: 2012-03-14 01:53 pm (UTC)On your to do list, you write down the first concrete step, instead of a hazy goal. Write "Read BCG recruiting webpage" instead of "Apply for BCG job", bc the latter is intimidatingly large, whereas the former is discrete and do-able. Tierney and Baumeister talk about the research that says if you write down actionable lists, your brain will let you stop thinking about stuff.
It's not always easy
Date: 2012-03-08 12:18 am (UTC)Re: It's not always easy
Date: 2012-03-08 12:58 pm (UTC)