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[mallorys_camera]

Three thousand dollars is all I need. Three thousand dollars, and I would be fine.

A significant sum, sure, but one that was within my grasp to compile in a few weeks for most of my earning career.

Not now though.

I feel like I'm sailing off the flat edge of the world.

Comments

[alumiere.livejournal.com]

I understand, and wish I could help. I keep wondering when the idiots who run this joint will wake up and stop behaving like children; it's time to do something that makes a difference, gives people a chance at a living wage and enough food without holding down 2-4 jobs.

[mallorys-camera.livejournal.com]

Well, the problem for me is that I'm over-educated and over 50. I would never have started the Little Store if I'd been able to snag another corporate job -- but I wasn't able to. Did I try hard enough? Maybe not. Marketing and biz dev are seen as young people's jobs. And I really have no other skills.

[ccjohn.livejournal.com]

Yeah things just keep finding new ways to suck. I'm sorry to hear this, but it winds up sounding useless -- I'm worried for you, I'm worried for me, worried about at least two very good friends of mine here -- hope we can stick together anyway. If only we all lived in the same place. There is sure the hell solid intellectual firepower here, we could do some great things but right now I'm just trying everything. clamsahoy.com, a labor of love -- pics and everything -- haven't even done an FB rollout because the quality's not there yet, even then you want like fifty sites like this. This one site, now, represents ten months of work! ugh. I am actually walking around here looking at vacant lots as possible places to farm. And I mean food! At least now I do know how to grow some things. We need a name. "Cheat Gardens," maybe. We Wuz Robbed plots.

[mallorys-camera.livejournal.com]

Yeah, if we all lived in the same place, we could at least hang out. And things would suck less. :-)

angry

[ccjohn.livejournal.com]

Yesterday I got massive life-circumstance work done. I looked up Teach, who I'd left to simmer for five days because she pissed me off. To celebrate. "Dude I'm off tonite, whatchu doing?" Wow, a regular nice time, just like anybody. She asks me out, she blows me off.

WTF is that shit? If I show class, and vanish, that respects her and punishes me. My call! I should protect myself for a change. Turn it over. No one can make you stand for that shit and I know every rotten trick in the book. I'd prefer not to go that route.

F. since you wrote the above, I now have a brand-new vector of rotten and concurrent brand-new loss of anything. I will force a win if it kills me. I don't care if no one's ever done it I'll be first.

I could use your counsel if you can stomach the details. I don't 99% of anyone in crap like last night. You cannot lose if you will not. Self-defense is a right and respect non-negotiable. Maybe she's just raving insane. That means total isolation again -- I'd rather fight.

Re: angry

[mallorys-camera.livejournal.com]

Sure, you can have my counsel. Dunno that I ever have anything particularly enlightening to say but you're welcome to it.

Re: angry

[ccjohn.livejournal.com]

you know where to look. p.s. I could be totally overreacting. that's why I hate texts, it is impossible to know anything. I'm tempted to quote them in succession, to convey to a reader ... well to see what someone else reading the same words thinks. I don't have perspective.

Re: angry

[mallorys-camera.livejournal.com]

You mean look in yr LJ? Didn't quite understand what happened from yr description. Can you explain it more linearly?

Re: angry

[ccjohn.livejournal.com]

yes let me revise.

Re: angry

[ccjohn.livejournal.com]

Exposition added.

[lethe1]

Would that really be enough to solve your problems, or would it only offer temporary relief? It doesn't sound like a lot to me.

[mallorys-camera.livejournal.com]

Doesn't sound like a lot, does it? I think it would solve all my problems. But I'm not positive.

[flaxendandelion.livejournal.com]

Oh no, so sorry to hear. :(

I worry about returning to the US, you know.

Are you running a business at the moment? Maybe you can brainstorm some new ways to make some money, even if it's only investing.

[mallorys-camera.livejournal.com]

No capital to run a business at the moment. Cobbling together a living freelance writing. But now applying for jobs.