The Real Problem(s)
May. 26th, 2024 10:28 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
mallorys_cameraSome time yesterday, I realized the real problem is I’ve completely lost my sense of humor, that coping-mechanism-cum-dissociative-device that, by rendering most things into High Farce, turns them bearable.
Not at all sure how one goes about getting a sense of humor back.
Meanwhile, I have this sense of being intensely alien and adrift.
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Ichabod sent me some music he’s been creating on GarageBand. I spliced his music in to some videos of that dark, solemn Easter procession we saw in Antigua. And that was really fun. So, maybe the real problem is that I’ve completely lost my sense of creativity:
In the afternoon, I went off to the garden. Such a beautiful day, it was! Everything is growing nicely except for the lemon basil I bought last week at the Northern Dutchess Bot Garden, which was bolting already—six-inch high seedlings! bolting!—which is the same thing that happened last year. I pinched off the buds and sprayed the seedlings with Neem oil, but I was un peu pissed. No more basil plants from the Northern Dutchess Bot Garden, I’m thinking.
Not at all sure how one goes about getting a sense of humor back.
Meanwhile, I have this sense of being intensely alien and adrift.
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Ichabod sent me some music he’s been creating on GarageBand. I spliced his music in to some videos of that dark, solemn Easter procession we saw in Antigua. And that was really fun. So, maybe the real problem is that I’ve completely lost my sense of creativity:
In the afternoon, I went off to the garden. Such a beautiful day, it was! Everything is growing nicely except for the lemon basil I bought last week at the Northern Dutchess Bot Garden, which was bolting already—six-inch high seedlings! bolting!—which is the same thing that happened last year. I pinched off the buds and sprayed the seedlings with Neem oil, but I was un peu pissed. No more basil plants from the Northern Dutchess Bot Garden, I’m thinking.
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Date: 2024-05-26 03:24 pm (UTC)no subject
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Date: 2024-05-26 06:21 pm (UTC)Yeah, I lose my sense of humour too when I'm not doing something ANYTHING that feels like ME, that is to say creative shit!!!
You know, Gary is mulling over bringing Idol back...I know it wasn't your cuppa, but it might help to churn out some words for votes!
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Date: 2024-05-26 06:26 pm (UTC)Yeah, I lose my sense of humour too when I'm not doing something ANYTHING that feels like ME, that is to say creative shit!!!
Very, very, very, very true!
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Date: 2024-05-27 03:37 pm (UTC)So, maybe the real problem is that I’ve completely lost my sense of creativity:. Oh the truth of this! I feel off the creative wagon--or rather slammed into a wall--a bit more than a month ago, and I have felt like utter crap in all aspects of life ever since. I am slowly getting back into creating--both words and art--and am coming alive again. However, all the imminent stuff (getting ready to go back to France for the summer, planning first trip to the States in ten years and all the accompanying logistics and emotional questioning), friends leaving here, and other personal waffle makes that coming alive an uphill battle. Given your current circumstances, I can only imagine how that is affecting your creative drive and output.
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Date: 2024-05-29 11:38 am (UTC)Yeah, I think to those of us who have the urge to create new things, not creating is tantamount to being walled up in a sepulcher.
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