Distraction-less
Sep. 28th, 2021 07:00 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
mallorys_camera‘Nother dream with a long, labyrinthian narrative I can’t remember except at the end, I was watching Ben convulsing on a bed—he’d overdosed on speed, cocaine, something. Was he gonna die? Should I call a doctor? But then if he got better on his own, I’d feel stupid.
There was also a really skinny baby lying on the floor. I thought, If I put it in the bed where Ben is lying, at least it will get warm.
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Finished the Remunerative Project. Edited Nafisa’s personal statement for her various residency applications. Tromped.
Other than that, I did nothing and felt curiously empty.
I couldn’t even distract myself because nothing is distracting.
I’ll start the next Remunerative Project today because I want $$$$ so I can show the boyZ a good time over Thanksgiving.
And continue clearing out the garden, prepping the soil and planting daffodil and tulip bulbs for next spring.
Although I’m having a hard time right now convincing myself there will be a next spring.
There was also a really skinny baby lying on the floor. I thought, If I put it in the bed where Ben is lying, at least it will get warm.
###
Finished the Remunerative Project. Edited Nafisa’s personal statement for her various residency applications. Tromped.
Other than that, I did nothing and felt curiously empty.
I couldn’t even distract myself because nothing is distracting.
I’ll start the next Remunerative Project today because I want $$$$ so I can show the boyZ a good time over Thanksgiving.
And continue clearing out the garden, prepping the soil and planting daffodil and tulip bulbs for next spring.
Although I’m having a hard time right now convincing myself there will be a next spring.
