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mallorys_cameraI woke up this morning and couldn't stop crying. Really, it was the oddest thing. I knew I was crying because I was exhausted, because gray fog has been hunkering down for a week now over just this one spot, town and harbor. A mile away you can see blue skies and sunlight, but here it drifts so dense, so close to the ground, it's actually drizzle.
Because I was crying - a physical act my psyche equates with grief - my mind supplied misery. What is the point of being alive? I wondered. It's more of the same old same-old punctuated by occasional adrenalin kicks.
But, of course, What is the point of being alive? is a rhetorical question. I already know the answer.
There is no point.
You have to accept that and get on with things.
Because I was crying - a physical act my psyche equates with grief - my mind supplied misery. What is the point of being alive? I wondered. It's more of the same old same-old punctuated by occasional adrenalin kicks.
But, of course, What is the point of being alive? is a rhetorical question. I already know the answer.
There is no point.
You have to accept that and get on with things.
