Recalibrating

[mallorys_camera]

What happens when one feels humiliated & ashamed is that one loses the narrative thread of one's own life.

Because how can what happens to you be at all important?

You're an idiot!!!

And idiots don't deserve to have stories.

Serious recalibration is called for.

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Anyhoo, the storm was dramatic but only dropped four inches of snow. While I watched the snow fall, I baked banana bread & prepared a complicated chicken Florentine dish. (See? I can cook! I just choose not to most of the time.)

All I wanted to do was read & watch mindless television, but no could do because I have approximately 1 billion pages of the U.S. tax code to memorize, plus all the usual Remuneration.

Betsy invited me to spend a weekend at her fabulous house in Westchester County.

Real-life Daria invited me to spend the winter at her house in California. She wants to give Brian's car to her son, but I suspect she has not thought that one through because she's also on the verge of trading in 30 years of freelance teaching & translation for a real job with benefits & security & everything, but also with only two weeks of mandated vacation per year—is she really gonna want to spend that precious two weeks transporting a car from New York to California?

If she does, we are chatting about me driving with her. Road trip! That would be mid-April.

If she doesn't, then I end up with Brian's car.

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Somewhere around then, too, I must mastermind my own next move.

I've been going back and forth between whether I should relocate to Ithaca or back to Dutchess County.

Dutchess County has the advantage of being a short train ride away from New York City where I would very much like to spend more time. And I have pals in the area.

I know more people in Ithaca, though. Plus RTT is there. If last week's unfortunate mishap is any kind of foreshadowing of how I can expect my dotage to transpire, it would be best to be around family members upon whom I can endlessly presume.

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I haven't gone near the Work in Progress in a couple of weeks.

I'm thinking I should start Chapter 4 today.

A large chunk of it takes place in a small-ish community hospital during COVID.

But I don't know anything about how small-ish community hospitals operated during COVID. And I'm not sure how to track that information down.

I guess I'm just gonna have to make it up.

Comments

[fuzzilla]

We might be moving, too. Job interview in Massachusetts (and possibly crawling back to Florida - please God, no).

You’re not an idiot, just stressed (but you know that).

[mallorys_camera]

Wow. That's big. I can't imagine you're looking forward to that.

What part of Massachusetts?

Going back to Florida... Wow...

[fuzzilla]

I mean, we hope to stay here, but he needs a job. He's still waiting to hear if he got the teaching job out here, but they said, "you'll know around Thanksgiving," so... MA doesn't sound so bad.

[mallorys_camera]

Massachusetts is fairly nice, though (obviously!) some places are nicer than others.

Did you decide that paralegal studies were not for you?

[fuzzilla]

No, I’m doing pretty well. I was invited to the honor society (somehow…grades haven’t been turned in yet). I could transfer my credits to another school if we move.

[mallorys_camera]

Excellent! 😀

[bleodswean]

*MORE HUGS*

You have got to get out of that place. But those two choices aren't easy or obvious either. Flip a coin? LOL. Wintering in Cali sounds pretty nice...

Oh, P. What does it all mean in the end. You're okay, girl.

[mallorys_camera]

I will get out of this place. Don't worry! 😀

[suzannareads]

❤️

[smokingboot]

Idiots have some of the best stories! It's the calm and wise who are incident free and therefore story free.
You're no idiot, but I do think you're in the wrong place, and am pleased you have these options.

[mallorys_camera]

Do idiots have good stories? Asking for a friend! 😀

Yah, definitely, Wallkill is not a great place for me. The BoyZ are pushing hard for Ithaca in the spring. We shall see!

[asakiyume]

Are you thinking of taking Daria up on the offer? I guess it would be hard to do the tax job from there, but.

We were packing the moving van during that storm. Or overseeing the packing, I guess I should say.

[mallorys_camera]

Definitely not visiting Daria this winter!

But I may accompany her if she drives Brian's car back to California this spring. I do love me a good road trip! 😀