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mallorys_cameraSpent all day yesterday wondering, Why am I here?
Not in the context of, Why aren't I someplace else?
More in the context of Why am I at all?
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Of course, I am essentially a magical thinker: Cosmology is causology.
My mother and Annie both told me I was the most observant infant they had ever seen. (Not that either of them had seen many infants.)
"I remember when they were bringing the babies out at the hospital," my mother said. "All the other babies were asleep! But your eyes were wide open. You were trying to look around."
So, my assignment in this lifetime would seem to be to bear witness and to pass my DNA along to Ichabod & RTT—both of whom have their own interesting & improbable creation stories.
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Meanwhile, this article is very, very interesting. The money quote: Removing the state-engine of war spending would plunge Russia into an economic stagnation on the scale not seen since the Soviet Union in the 1980s...
It's particularly interesting in view of the fact that half the $175 or so billion the U.S. "gave" to Ukraine went to American munitions manufacturers.
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Anyway, I was very, very sad all day yesterday. My concentration span has shrunk to nanoseconds—which makes it very, very difficult to Remunerate though Remunerate I did.
I also speed-read my way through Dolly Alderton's Ghosts, surprisingly good and at times profound—that "surprisingly" tacked on because Dolly Alderton is generally filed under "chicklit." Alderton really has a talent for descriptive prose; her metaphors dazzle.
Today, I'm going to the gym, and then I have a meeting with my Dungeons & Dragons group. In the evening, Tom & I are gonna snark-watch the Oscars together, each on our respective phones. Anora and A Real Pain were my two favorite films this year.
I am trying like mad not to pay any attention to current events, except that kinda feels like when you're on a plane, and you have to stare out the window to keep the plane in the sky. Of course, you know you're not really keeping the plane in the sky, but... can you afford to take chances?
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Meanwhile, geopolitical chaos calls for the creation of new religions:
Not in the context of, Why aren't I someplace else?
More in the context of Why am I at all?
###
Of course, I am essentially a magical thinker: Cosmology is causology.
My mother and Annie both told me I was the most observant infant they had ever seen. (Not that either of them had seen many infants.)
"I remember when they were bringing the babies out at the hospital," my mother said. "All the other babies were asleep! But your eyes were wide open. You were trying to look around."
So, my assignment in this lifetime would seem to be to bear witness and to pass my DNA along to Ichabod & RTT—both of whom have their own interesting & improbable creation stories.
###
Meanwhile, this article is very, very interesting. The money quote: Removing the state-engine of war spending would plunge Russia into an economic stagnation on the scale not seen since the Soviet Union in the 1980s...
It's particularly interesting in view of the fact that half the $175 or so billion the U.S. "gave" to Ukraine went to American munitions manufacturers.
###
Anyway, I was very, very sad all day yesterday. My concentration span has shrunk to nanoseconds—which makes it very, very difficult to Remunerate though Remunerate I did.
I also speed-read my way through Dolly Alderton's Ghosts, surprisingly good and at times profound—that "surprisingly" tacked on because Dolly Alderton is generally filed under "chicklit." Alderton really has a talent for descriptive prose; her metaphors dazzle.
Today, I'm going to the gym, and then I have a meeting with my Dungeons & Dragons group. In the evening, Tom & I are gonna snark-watch the Oscars together, each on our respective phones. Anora and A Real Pain were my two favorite films this year.
I am trying like mad not to pay any attention to current events, except that kinda feels like when you're on a plane, and you have to stare out the window to keep the plane in the sky. Of course, you know you're not really keeping the plane in the sky, but... can you afford to take chances?
###
Meanwhile, geopolitical chaos calls for the creation of new religions:
